It’s one of the most memorable days of my life. I was 28, a wife of six years, and a mom of two girls. My days were a mix of play dates, bibs, and vacuums. I was pretty settled into my life as a mommy of two girls, and I honestly felt like I had it all under control.
Life was good and more goodness was headed my way.
I received the news that I was pregnant with two more children— our third and fourth. Twins—I had two tiny lives growing inside of me, at the same time!
This “good news” began with a lot of concern, for me. I was full of fear, anxiety and angst. Immediately, my mind began racing with thoughts like….
We need a new car and a bigger house.
We can’t afford two more children.
How am I going to carry twins?
I felt like God had made a mistake and I honestly had no confidence or ability to imagine carrying, delivering, nurturing, and raising two more children, in addition to what I felt like was an already comfortably, full quiver.
Fast forward six years. With a bit of hindsight I realize, I was right. I can’t do this; at least not alone.
Moment by moment and day-by-day, I’ve learned to put my “can’t” into the hand of God.
I find comfort in trusting that with God all things are possible.
And I have found peace in knowing that He who began a good work in me (very literally) will be faithful to complete it!
If I could go back in time this is what I would tell myself:
Self,
Cheer up. You have been chosen!
Mothering.
God has hand picked you to bring life to four of His daughters, to show them His love and to grow them in His nature.
There will be days when you believe they will need more than you have. On those days, lean in even closer to your Heavenly Father and give them Him.
There will be days when you will need to love more than you thought you were capable. On those days, lean in even closer and give them Him.
Choose now to enjoy the noise. Brace yourself for the uncontrollable laughter and commit now to grow in compassion because you will need it to handle the tears.
Mothering is a journey that will bring you more joy and happiness than you ever thought possible. Decide now to be fully present; intentional, and deeply committed to what God has called you to.
