Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall (Proverbs 16:18, NIV).
I was ‘thrown under the bus’ for the last time and suddenly found myself out of a job. I had just spent two and a half years trying to make a difference, trying to do the right things, but was relying on my own power and abilities–which were not enough.
I had worked since I was 16 years old and was now over 50. What was I expected to do with the rest of my life? Could I really ‘let go and let God?' After all, I had gone to Him, on my knees, begging him to give me some sign or indication of what He would have me do. I was tired of fighting the ‘good’ fight; I was tired of being miserable; I could not make the differences I knew in my heart needed to be made, but was being out of work for the first time in my life really what God wanted for my life? Had I been too hasty to jump without something in place?
Surely I would have no problem finding another job quickly with my experience and expertise. Right! I now realize (connecting the dots) God needed to work on my Pride. I needed to humble myself–so I threw myself into ministry and volunteered for as much as I could at my church.
I had been as active as I could, considering my extensive travel schedule, but had not really been engaged. I could now create programs, minister to others; I loved serving others and created a ministry around determining spiritual gifts and using those gifts to aid the church and community. Had I found my real place?
A paid position became available at the church and surely I would be a shoe-in considering all I had done for the church in a short period of time and the commitment I had shown. I was excited.
Written by Tricia Krohmer
